They said “Never, Dave. Never”. I don’t think I was the same ever again after. It sparked an entire upheaval from within. It wasn’t just a change of moving furniture around, or a new color paint on the walls, but an immediate evacuation of the soul within body. I was now looking for a new place to inhabit. Under a rock, in a cave somewhere high in a mountain with no human interaction. I had to kill the one person I loved more than anything in that small window of bright sunlight. I had to kill myself.